I keep counting .

"I'll wait"

Its 1pm and I'm updating my blog rite now . Haha , seriously I kinda boring because I've done doing my job . Its only one day left . And I cant wait for wednesday . Seriously , felt like I wanna sleep and wake up on wednesday morning . But I know I cant . Ahh , chill .

I just washed my luggage , and I'm 'drying' it . haha , wait wait wait . What I can say is only wait . Even I hate waiting . Half packed , another half I'll do it tomorrow . Ohh yeah , I just remembered that elya PM me last night . Asking me whether I want to go with her this wednesday to Sunway or not . Sorry , I really cant make it . Later okay ? I wanna try to slow talk with my mom . She has been asking me for two times and I really wanna go . But , wrong time . Hm .

About yesterday , went to putrajaya with my family . watched my brother concert . Some was good and some was not . Especially the boria was kinda Hancusss . Met with Aqil Farhan , his brother graduated on that day . Hihi , we dint talk with each other just smile . Its enough . Then , we went to Alamanda for breakfast even tho it was 1 pm at that time . Haha , then met safiyah . Haqeem classmate , she was very talkative . She talk a lot but my brother dint talk anything . Shy , he said -.- After that went back home . Tired .

So , Its enough for today . I wanna eat . I eat a lot nowdays but I still can fit my 'M' size T Shirt well . See ? Haha . Okay , tknak berlagak . Bye !

Cheer Up !

Hey , how ya day today ? Make it good , and I'm trying my best to make my day better than before :) And I think my day today is great . Woke up around 8 . Because I cant sleep well . I had a nightmare and it haunted me and it really happen . Hmm , ya know what ? I cant remember this properly .. In my dream , Taqi or Faiz said to me 'Aku rindu kita berempat macam dulu ' And , I accidentally said ' Sekarang kita dah tinggal bertiga , bukan berempat . Sedar sikit ' And he said ' Haah , aku lupa . Dahlah , biarkan je lah DIA ' After that we change our topic . I suddenly woke up and I just cant remember whether it happen truly or just in my dream . Seriously I cant remember . Then I had a talk with elya . I told her I'm not going to school next week . I'm going somewhere . she said 'anyway, take care di sana okay and jangan fikir byk sgt psl ehemehem tu. be strong syg ♥ elya nadeera sentiasa menyokong awak :)' . After I read this , I cry . I lost my best friend and she came to help me . Thank God I still have her :) I'm gonna be strong . Even more stronger than before . Elya , for you . I will ! I got lotsa thing to think . I try to be strong even sometimes I cant . Seriously I need somebody to calm me . And I have my family and friends beside me . I think its enough for me .

Girl , at the date of 22 oct 2010 at 14.51 . I'll make sure that it will be the last time I heard yr voice . Now , Its hurt me enough to remember all the things that you did to me . Please , I'm not strong enough to going trough all this . Thank you :)

Boy , at the date of 22 oct 2010 around 6 pm . I'll make it VERY sure that it will be the last time I received yr text . You hurt me enough with yr words . Please , its hurt for me to let you go before . But , this time I'm very sure that I HATE YOU . Sorry , I cant accept you as my special boyfriend or friend . I'm very sure with this . Get it ? Thanks :)

So , I make a decision . I change my perception . I still can stand ALONE . Going to school ALONE . And live my life happily ALONE . Dont ya think I'm weak . I believe in myself that I can . Besides that , I still have my family and friends as my supporters .

Thats all for today . I wanna get some sleep because I cant wait for tomorrow event . Arif Minda Annual Concert and Graduation Day :) Seriously cant wait . Ahha , ciao !

Just A second , I know many things !

HeyHey , so today . Went to school as usual . And yeah . It'll be the last time I went to school . Not for next week ! Rest time wohooo ! And , just now . Faiz and Taqi came to my house . LepakLepak . GosipGosip . Even tho they are boys . They're such a busybody . And , they Love gossip . haha , kinda weird . So , sembangsembang kosong . About one hour later , they wanna go home . So , I'm alone now . And yeah , just to let you know . I switched off my phone and I dint remember where I put it . I log out from my FB acc . My home phone , I reject some call from some numbers . So , dont try to contact me . I am No More ! Tolong lah jgn muncul depan aku lg . Ckuplah ape yg aku dapat skrg ni sebagai KAWAN kau . Btw , congrats girl . You got what you want just now . Live yr Life happily .

My Life , My Rule !

xoxo ,
natasya =)

Make it coolioww !

Teacher , please make it cool !

Hadeh , today was not good ! Bo-Bo-Bo-Sann ! Sungguh tk tipu . Aku dtg pon sbb nk tgok ratu kebaya AwwAww ! Haha , thenthen kne buat sajak . Gila segan . Tasha , you owe me one . And yeah , kesian tgok ckgu laila manja . Aku bab ckgu laila manja memang kalah . She's Nice btw . sbb tu lah mcm tk smpi hati sgt tgok dia td . Haihh , ITU NAMANYA WAN TASHARINA TAK BERHATI PERUT SEBAB CKGU LAILA MANJA PANGGIL DIA BUKAN AKU !! Tk pasal2 . Heh , lpas hbis ratu kebaya . About half an hour before the last bell rang , ade org dri ape nme syarikat tu . tk ingt lah , dia dtg bg ceramah psl grafik tk silap . COOL ! ! Haha , then kne stay smpi pkul DUA sebab ceramah tu hbis lmbt . Then , time nk blik jalanjalan nmpk kerete my mom . Dkat area Arif Minda tu . Nk ambik Mohd I guess , then ajak Tacha Kejam tu singgah . Nmpk my mom . My mom was 'Haaaa ? you buat ape ?' Something like terkejut lah tgok ktorg ade kt situ . Heh , then my mom said yg mohd yg supposed to be there at 12.30 . Just arrived at 2 pm . Hoho , terbaik syok sgt rehearsal kan smpi blik lewat . Standard lah bawak bdak tadika ingat senang ke ? Dh lah ramai . Then , tgok Haqeem Ben 10 tu lari2 kat ktorg and yeah Super Duper Excited because I was there . AwwAww terharu sayang :) Lpas tu blik . And yeah , online . tkde bnde nk study kan ? Study cupcake corner mmg best . Mwahaha ;)

Motif hri ni : Orang ptut tau tasharina kejam . heh , tkde hati perut . Tk kesian ke kat ckgu ? Dh mntk maaf buat lg .

HAHA , Aina !

Okay . Skrg ni memang tgh lebat diperkisahkan tentang pilihan asrama . Ade yg smpi nangisnangis ketuk kepala tktau nk msuk mne . Slah stu dripd manusia jenis itu ialah aina syamimi . Hahahaha . Aina , aku dh bce blog kau yg psl aku tu ;) And yeah , aku mintak sgtsgt kau pegi lari pegi skolah skrg ketuk kple ckgu yg dh buat aku berminat nk msuk awam sematamata nk kerja buat landasan keretaapi -_____- Haha , funny rite ? Aku memang pakar dlm bab lawaklawak ni sbb tu lah dlu aku prnh bercitacita nk msuk raja lawak . DushDushDang ! Diam , jgn gelak lah . Aku dh mohon teknik tu , sekrg ni kita ikut rezeki and semestinya result . Yeah , memang aku hrp dpt msuk SBP . Tp , kalau dh orang mcm aku ni slalu tido dlm class science , adakah aku wajar/berkelayakan nk msuk class bio , fizik , chemist ? Sbb ape ? Sbb aku pilih sains tulen . Muahaha , dh thu susah lg pergi mohon . Tp tkkan lah aku nk amik teknikal ? Mcm ehemehem tk kuasa aku . Tp tulah , mnelah tau tbetbe dpt offer sains teknikal . Aku kaut je mnemne . Hohoho , andandand . Aina , aku terse berbangga sebab kau pilih lenggong . GoGoGo Yeah ! InsyaAllah kalau ade rezeki kau berjayalah kau kt situ . Aku bercitacita nk msuk situ dlu sbb tkde hantu . Bodoh gilaa -.- Tp , tulah . Tbetbe aku tk terase plak nk mohon MRSM memandangkan rse rendah diri aku menguasai time tu . And now , mcm menyesal pulak kan . But , its okay . Kalau kau dpt aina . Kau peluk cium lah MRSM Lenggong tu untk aku . Huahuahua . Mcm lawak je , gye mcm kau dh smpi new york siap nk berpelukcium . Hihi , Okayokay . Papepon , doa kan lah yg terbaik untk aku . Sebab pilihan aku kt U nnti aku nk pilih lain . Bt untk next year aku tktau ape yg terbaik . Aku ikut rentak semase dn terkini je lah kayy ? AINA , PEGI KETUK CEPAT KEPALA CIKGU TU ! aku pon dh tk ingt ckgu ape msetu sbb aku dgr ceramah tu pon smbil tersengguksengguk . Haha , So . CIAO !

What A Joy ?

Ho yeah , yesterday . My mom plan nk beli baju . Then , I suggested Bukit Tinngi . Last time I went there a few months ago watching Lagenda Budak Setan kalau tk silap ;) Then , my mom agreed . We went there around 10.30 . Before that , we go to Andalas . Send my little brother to my Aunt's house . First , we go to Ladies Apparel . I found blouse cantik untk my mom . Then , my mom pegi fitting . Okay , ambik . Then lalu dkat Scarlet . My mom sruh cari yg cntik untk dia . Tibatiba ternampak dress Pink Purple Motif butterfly dgn bunga . Pegi fitting , cantik ambik . Its for me kayy ? haha . Lpas tu dh byr ape semua . Pegi PDI my mom nk cri bag . Kat dalam tu ade vincci , lpas tu tgok shades lawalawa . I tried , okay , ambik . Mwahaha . Lpas tu jalanjalan lg , TERnmpk sasa . Cri eyeshadow tone brown sbb nk try buat smokey eye . Jumpa , msuk bakul . Then my mom nk cri make up base . Jumpa , try dkat my hand . Okay msuk bakul bayar . Lpas tu pegi Food Court my mom nk mkn nasi . I ate spagetti . Spagetti dia tk boleh challenge secret recipe lah ;) haha , then pegi mini toons . My mom sruh cari door curtain for my room . Jumpa color pink bentuk love . Berkenan ambik . Lpas tu dkat depan mini toons ade big apple . Msuk , beli . Then , time nk blik my mom teringat nk beli jacket untk my brother . Msuk blik jusco . Jmpe , beli . Lpas tu dh penat kaki sumpah sakit . I ajk my mom blik , she said okay . Lpas tu blik . Hoho , what a joy ? :))

Enjoy with the loved one !

Today , Im not going to school . I went out with my mom . We went to some boutiques and finally we found my cardigan . And yeah , I bought it . After that , went back home . Rest . Then , Tacha called me and she came to my house around 3.30 . She bring her new Nikon D3000 . OhMyGosh ! Cool Babe ! Ahha , Soo Jealous ! But nvm because she dont mind to share it with me :)) hihi , Great ! And yeah , I'm glad to see her after a few days we dint talk w each other ;)

Ya know what ? I miss someone :( But , I need to forgive and forget and live my life happily hmm . Just cant believe that I cant let it goo . UNTIL NOW . Is it hard ? Yeah , too hard . But at least I try . And I'll never stop trying .

Sometimes , I cant be fair . I mean , I dont know how to be fair . I cheered people but then I hurt them and cheered other people . It change . Keep changing . For those who text me , I'm sorry . I save my crdt for someone eventho I know it wont happen . We wont text again . We already end it up . Supposed to be sad or not ? I dont know , I'm disturbed by many people . And , I'm lost . Just cant think and do something properly . Must be at least A Mistake .

Haihh , Tomorrow I supposed to give back my text book . But I dint pack anything yet . Soo lazy . More to tired and .. Hmmm . Sokayy , I'm off . Nite (:

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Please stop and leave me alone !

Just stand there , or go away !

All those thing happens suddenly . I'm not desperate . Dont act like a fool . You are my bad memories , please dont come again . I'm tired . TIRED of the games , lies . You taught me many things , and I'm not forgetting . I keep it , and I'm using it now . Sometime I can be like a fool . And sometime , you act like a fool . I'm tired . Tired . Tired . Cant you feel this ? Its fine , keep your secret alone . I dont mind and I wont ask again and again . Tell me if you want , keep it if you want to see me dying . Choose , you go or I go ? I'm slowly moving . You know the stories . Dont look for me if one day you wake up and you cant find me . FOREVER . Its true , I'm going . Far Away . Just wait , the time will come . That time , you can smile and laugh . Live yr life happily .

Today , otw back to my home from nayli's . We had a talk , and finally I know . My wish will come true .My parents agreed with my decision . Atikah know , what I want . I want it , NEXT YEAR ! I cant bear with anything right now . Feels like I'm losing what I have right now . But , its alright . I want it , and I'm gonna get it . Wanna know ? Read this . If you get , congrats . If not , I wont care .

Me : Ma , I'm going somewhere after I've done my paper . Can I ? Please ! Only a few days ..
Mama : Skip yr school ? Can you ?
Me : Ma , after the exam the teacher wont care . Come or not , no diff . Please ?
Mama : Then , you wanna stay there alone ?
Me : Yalah , only a few days .. Then , I'll be back here by bus .
Mama : Bus ? No . Not good !
Me : Then , you send me and you come again to take me . Okay ?
Mama : But why suddenly ? Go to school lah .
Me : I dont want !
Mama : Spend time with yr friends lah , for the last time . Next year you said you wanna move out . Dont you gonna miss 'em ?
Me : No , I'm not ! I've spent lots with 'em .
Mama : Later we talk again .
Me : huh ? Okay .

Mayb I'm not going to SBP . So think think think . And Happy Trying ;) I dont know is this true or not , But I hope its true . Heh

xoxo ,
natasya .

Penilaian Menengah Rendah , I Love You So Muchhs !

5 oct ~ 11 oct . next week tk next week ahh . thanks again for the 'goodluck' . pray for me all the best . to all candidates 'all the best' from me . I'm sorry kalau ade buat salah . so , goodbye .

see ya on 12 oct , with my big smile of coz . haha .

BH049K128 . Tmpt dduk bersebelahan dgn TACHA , weehoo ;)